Muddy Boots

The thought of resting, without your blessing,
Sent shivers up my spine.
The kiss on my brow, as it’s all quiet now,
Left a request in my eyes.
Though, what is a request, without a strong grip,
But a prayer for more time?
No, it is but with capture, and villainous rapture,
That you shall be mine.
Roll over tombstones, and howl to the moon’s home,
That dusky, darkened night.
Pick the star for your quiver, the spirits for your liver,
Pluck your eyes from my sight.
For with each reflection, a flash of detection,
Behind firelight,
If my teeth would glow, the more you could know,
The speed of my flight.
Shake the birds from their roosts, as ever more proof,
To the depth of my sin.
Catch each fleeing feather, as my promise to never,
Stray from this bend.
Chase the flow of the river, fill the bowl of the beggar,
As much greater men,
Have fallen far from confession, led yet to reflection,
Of their untimely end.
The clock is ticking, the well bucket dripping,
Fly far from these lands.
Send prayers to your light, for by the break of the night,
You shall be, in the heat, of my hands.

Jack

Tendrils have frayed
on a rope, now decayed,
as it gently sways,
amidst a circle of stones.

How long it grows,
to the darkness below;
floating above shadows,
amidst a circle of stones.

And though it hangs deep,
there is one it can’t reach;
a hand now deceased
amidst a circle of stones.

He tipped with a crash
and landed with a splash;
a thousand screams trapped
amidst a circle of stones,

Mania

I can feel a tension building; a familiar tension.

The tingle on the back of my skull.

The anxiety.

The anger.

The frustration with how much of this process of living I don’t understand.

The confusion of why I’m here, what I’m searching for, and why I can never be happy.

It’s a powder keg and embers are floating everywhere.

I get like this sometimes.

Sometimes I can’t push down the questions, the doubts, and the fears.

Every time this happens, I know. I know there’s potential.

Potential for a lightning strike.

A thunderous explosion.

A lapse of reason.

I have to weather the storm.

I just have to wait for it to pass.

Play dead, don’t move, don’t think.

Lest my presence be known to the dark thoughts prowling past.

The monstrous realities that exist in this plane.

Don’t even breathe.